So I had to get some tests done yesterday to figure out why I'm loosing so much weight, can't eat, only sleep, and feel pukey. I got bloodwork done and I have a very low platelet count so they have to do more things with that. I had a urine sample(fun) and they found protien among other things in it. So I have to get more done on that too. I also had a fun other test which I don't know the result of yet...I will today though. And pretty much I have something wrong with my kidney's. Today after school when my mom went to the docs to get a slip for me she asked how I was doing and my mom said okay but her stomach is still bothering her and the docs response was oh no. So that's just great. And of course no one but myself and my mom really care or will even bother to help me out with this. You have no idea how hard this is on me and how horrible I feel. And the one person I wish would do something about it gives off the message of hope you feel better but don't come to me for help or support. I'm doing te alone thing again which I hate. I think that's what's making this situaton worse too. I always end up sitting home alone with no one to call or come over. I'm a wreck. Keep me in your prayers.

Yeah and the thing is...I know he cares...I can see it, I notice it when we talk, and I felt it when we hugged. That's the part that makes me sick and I can't do anything about it....fuck