Cause I built you a home in my heart, With rotten wood, it decayed from the start.

Wow, I am VERY overdue for an update.

I've been entirely too busy to take the time out to sit down and write.

Let's see, I moved back in with my parents this weekend.

I really loved it there but I missed my friends more than I thought I would and had to come back.

Although I'm back, I haven't spent much time at home.

Morgan's party was this weekend and I spent a good amount of time in Dennison with him and our friends.

I had a little bit too much fun. lol

And plan on having too much fun again on the 8th for my birthday bash =]

Last night my cousin was in town and I took her out (after my mom got her trashed)

The usual, sitting over at Josh's smokin' and drinkin' lol although Cassie and I skipped that, for the most part, and convinced everyone to play Egyptian Ratscrew which ended it Jordan kicking everyone's asses. haha

As for what I'm doing with the rest of my summer, I have no idea.

I leave sept 14th and I'm just going t oenjoy my time left until then.

Running out of things to say, comments are lovely.

Toodles! :-)

Third day in my new home!

I noticed that I came to Columbus to escape from everything and everyone, yet I find myself wishing i was "home". The saying goes, 'Home is where the heart is' and I didn't realize how true that was until just recently. It's not the family though. I can honestly say that I don't miss my parents all that much if at all. It's my friends that I miss the most. I really do feel like I lieft a part of me, a big part, behind. I had no idea it would be this hard. The ironic thing is the person I miss the most is the one I know the least. I catch myself thinking about going home to him all the time. So Wednesday can't come soon enough. The drive home is going to be terribly long and painful!

I don't even live with my parents anymore and yet somehow they've already recruited me to do work when I get to their house. What a nice way to welcome me! lol As soon as I'm done it's off to see Morgan for the night. Which will probably just end up being us going to 5th street and getting shitfaced. haha Then it's home at a descent hour since I have to wake up at 3am for my plane to Florida. That sould be fun. Me and my siblings got a hotel room to ourselves so we'll actually be able to escape from the grandparents. :)

Kip just woke up from his 7 hour nap so I'm going to go walk him and get ready to pick Nate up from work. I'll be sure to update later and I'll have pictures up by next week.

Quick update

I'm moving to colmunbus today around 2 and I'm super stoked to be going somewhere where I can breathe. Being here is just suffocating me. The people, the place, the drama, the worry etc... It's too much right now. So I'll be moving in with my sister for a month. No worries though, I'll be home on the weekends!! Alright, well I have to go pack (yes that's right I still haven't packed yet and I'm leaving in less than 4 hours) and say goodbye to Morgan :( I'll update once I get settled in. Toodles.

Bittersweet

I recently was given some amazing advice from a few amazing people. I have so many feelings building up inside of me and I don't know what to do with them. I can't tell the person how I feel because it doesn't matter. I can't yell at the person because what does that solve? There's really not much I can do, except for one thing. I was told to write down everything I want to say to this specific person and then never let them see it. That way I get it off my chest and no one gets "hurt" So, I think that's what I'm going to do only a little differently. I'm going to write it all on here. I've been really behind with the updates anyways and not many people read this so it just seemed right. Also, just maybe "said person" will come across this and realize some things. I don't have any time to write today, an old friend just recently came back into my life and I'm going to see him in a bit. I just wanted to let everyone know that there will be some changes going on and I hope they don't offend anyone because we all know how blunt and open I am. lol Till next time.

OH! and this is my old friend Kyle.

Blogging in 6th period.

So things have been a little rough lately but I seem to be managing. Prom is coming sooner than expected but I abosolutely can't wait! I'm going with my boyfriend Kenny, Becca and her boyfriend Billy, and Megan and her boyfriend Bobby. Who really knows though? It'll truely be a night to remember and I'm so glad to be spending it with those I love most, minus one of course. I'll be wearing the dress I wore to my sister's wedding which means my mom is letting me get my hair and nails done since we don't have the cost of the dress. Now I just have to figure out where I put the necklace that goes along with it! Oops!! Any SOMEONE (Kenny lol) needs to hurry up and get his tux because he has a very stressed out girlfriend who doesn't want to have to go with him. lol

Soon after Prom comes Graduation. Nearly everyone I talk to says something on the lines of "Omg, can you believe it? We're graduating..." almost everytime I speak to them. We have less than a month until the big day. Last I heard it was 23 days!! How amazing is that? I truely can't wait, but then again, I can. Graduating only means it's time to finally grow up which is something I'm not ready to do. I have a feeling that this summer won't be all that I want it to be. It'll be filled with working, packing, stressing, crying etc...We'll be leaving at the very end of August, early September to move in and for my orientation. And yes, I said "we". Kenny is going to miss his one year anniversary at Friendly's to move to Nelsonville with me. I'm so grateful for him and all he does for me. I'd be stranded in a place I don't want to be, doing things I don't wish to do. This way I'll have someone to turn to that's not at least 3 hours away. Only about 3 months until the big move! Wish us luck!

What else?

I'm writing ANOTHER story in Creative Writing and this time it's about Tracy and Jake. Two friends of mine and their love story. Along with my sister and her husband, I look up to those too. A real envy. I feel pressured though because I don't want to mess up or say something bad etc... It's hard to write about someone you know and love. That's why I decided against my first idea. I was going to write about me and Mark but after long thought and consideration I vetoed the idea. So many things pushed me away from it. The good memories that would upset me, the bab memories that would upset me more, the pain, the love, the hopes, and everything else that goes along with it. Plus, I'd want him to read it and that's just not something that should happen. I'd end up hurting some of the people I love the most so I'm going to stick with Jake and Tracy because their story is a happy one.

Not much else exciting is going on in my life right now. I will be sure to update later. Don't forget to leave me comments!

I'm not a perv...I just thought they were funny!!!

So this is Kenny...

Well, I think I look better in the other picture but this one if cute of him!

I had the most amazing night ever.

I absolutely ADORE his family and especially his dogs. lol all 115lbs!! haha

Not much else to say

Plus I have to go get ready for the night

Leave me those comments

How about this....

FUCK PEOPLE.

The mall is such a wonderful place!!

So , this is Kenny. Lovely huh? Well here's the story.

Tuesday afternoon, I'm sick and depressed so my wonderful best friend Sara comes over and snatches me away. She had to make a run to the mall and waste her money lol so we drove over and went to Macy's where we got some shirts and what not. After that we decided we were hungry and went towards some food stand with pretzels haha. Suddenly I hear Sara proclaim that she needs sunglasses so we go into Journey and begin our search. Little did I know that our search would end up finding Kenny. haha. So She buys the sunglasses from him and as we're walking out I say "Daaaayyyyyymnnnnn" in my normal voice, almost positive he heard. Sara laughs and goes yeah he was cute. Se we get all the way back to Macy's about to leave and Sara had a revelation that Maggie needs a new boyfriend and she runs back into Journey. She thn begins talking to Kenny and tells him I think he's cute. There we talked to him for about 45 minutes until finally I got so sick we had to go. We then went to Wendy's and Auto Zone but that's besides the point. She got me a hook up! ahaha He gave us his number etc...and I've been talking to him ever since. He came over yesterday and we hung out for hours and I had a freaking blast. Plus he's a really good kisser haha (I really hope he doesn't read this!!!!) I have a date with him Saturday night and we've been texting like crazy. Definately into one another. So much for not getting a boyfriend right away huh? Whatever. I'm actually happy....for real. I can stop trying to convince myself that I am because I actaully am!!! How amazing is that? He actually makes me feel wanted and what not. And cares about how I feel. Awesome. Anyways, I just thought you'd all like to know! :) I'll have to update you laters with the rest of my life but for now I have to go write my story for Creative Writing because if I don't Kenny will be angry. haha Cause I promised to call him after I was done...looks like I'll be up til midnight again. Wish my luck!! Toodles.

But Lately I've Been Jaded

I'm having difficulties filling the void in my life. Being around people just doesn't seem to be helping. I still have that empty feeling inside me. I haven't been in school for two days because I've been since but honestly, I think part of the reason why I don't want to go back is because of the people. Yes I'm lonely and want to be around people but I find that being near others only makes me feel worse. Take last night for example. I was with Sara and Tim. I love those two but the entire time I felt terrible. Partly because I'm sick and feel like shit but mostly because it hurt me seeing them together. I know it's so selfish of me but I feel like if I have to be unhappy then everyone else should be too. It's wrong thinking and I'd never do anything to make others unhappy for my own personal gain but it's just so hard being near others. But staying in my room for the rest of my life just sin't a reality. Tomorrow is the day that I face the world and actually go to school and deal with the pain. The horrible thing is I brought this upon myself. I told him was done...with everything. I made myself hurt. He forced me to do it, but still, I've gone through this with him before and never gave up so why now? What made things different this time? I'm not really sure. I've been asking myself a lot lately what if things would have been different? Everything goes as ment to be, that much I know for sure but why? Why do we have to suffer so much for so little happiness? I really hope things are better in the next life. I'm not really one for talking about how I feel. I only ever use to tell Mark but I feel that it's my duty to share my thoughts and feelings with you because just maybe the things I say could change something in your life. Someone once told me they had to do something because they "owed" it to the world. They had to do something to make the big difference. Well, I'm not here to change the world. I'm here to change you. Anyone willing to hear me. I know everyone reading this is just like me. You read this and go HEY that chick makes sense, and then you'll do nothing more. I was like that once. And let me tell you. I really wish I would have listened to the people around me. It would have made a world of difference in my life and I probably wouldn't hurt so bad now if I had listened. You don't have to fight a war to change the world. You can share your story and hope that one person hears it and runs with it. As terrible as it is, you have to hurt in order to achieve happiness so tomorrow I'm going to hurt and hope for just one true smile by the end of the day.

An added note to my last post

As I was going downstairs today for the first time I thought of something else. You know how I said that bit about being invisible? Right, well that's only part of how I feel. I know people see me but not the real me. The real me is invisible to them. And honestly, invisible to me too sometimes. The funny thing is though that there is someone who knew the real me. But the sad part of it is that I don't think he sees and I know he doesn't care. Told you it was sad. It's alright though, he won't have to bother trying to pretend to care anymore because like him, I can give up on people do and I just did. Terrible thing too cause I really would have been there through it all. So here's to a broken promise. I give up. And would you look at that? There I go again pleasing others cause he just got his way.

P.s. Go ahead, talk shit cause it's not like you weren't already. Tell everyone how pathetic I am for the "sob story" but that's not how it is. I just want to let you know you're not the only one that feels lonely and doesn't care anymore. I just can't do this anymore. I can't keep trying to be there for you if you won't even be there for yourself. Come find me once you have.

When you love somebody, you love them. You cant help that and you're not suppose to. I mean look at me. At least you found someone who loves you back

Today was my last day of Spring Break and I'll tell you what...it was very uneventful. I've been laying in bed all day. Haven't eaten, talked to anyone, or done anything else for that matter. Only getting out of bed when nature calls. :) But it gave me time to think (which is probably the reason behind my screaming headache!) Also, I've been watching What Women Want. That helped my mind get going too! I just realized, I don't want to be another statistic. I don't want to look back on my life when I'm 30 or even 80 and think the same things that everyone else does when they are that age. I want to look back and say wow what a life I had. Wouldn't you want to say that too instead of wishing you took that job or married the one you truely loved and not the "right choice" I don't want to look back at myself as I am right now and regret not living. Because let's face it, without risk what is there? Nothing. You experience what everyone else does. The same old shit. I want to live, to thrive, to succeed in my own way and not someone else's. This is my life and I'm going to see to it that I live it to the fullest. I want people to look at me and see that I'm happy. I don't want to have to try and convince people I'm happy all the time with fake smiles and laughs. Which not many people know, but that's what I do. My life is full of happy moments. Not periods of time. And it always seems I work so hard to get two steps forward only to soon get puched four steps back. I know MANY people feel the same way I'm just willing to put it all out there. Can anyone ever be truely happy? We were "put" here for a better reason then to feel pain and fall on our asses. Some greater purpose. Has to be. I hate feeling like I'm just another person in this world. Feeling completely invisible and wiped out. I mean, can you really love just one person and be happy with them forever? Can you have that best friend who sticks by your side throughout the years and you grow old together? Can you find your perfect job and live in that perfect home? I'm beginning to think you can't. At least in my life. I'm always getting pushed down or looked past. I try. I really do. Maybe not hard enough but I try all the same and effort is what counts right? Just when things get good, something goes sour and you're left to start new. Total clique I know, but it's just not fair. I suppose it's better to once have then to not have at all. Basically, I feel like I've done so much to try and be the best person I can be and it's never good enough. Not for friends, that special someone, family, teachers etc...for no one. So I've decided I need to do things for me. I can't keep living for others. I can't keep trying so hard to please them and make them love me for me when I don't even know who me is. I'm going to do just that. Find myself. And I'm going to let you in on a little secret of mine....I'm scared to death.

Our Eyes Were Put Infront Of Our Heads So We Can Look To Where We Are Going And Not To Where We Have Been

Lately, things in my life have been really strange. I've been getting along with my family GREAT and I actually don't mind coming home anymore. My mom even let me spend the night at someone else's house on Thursday! How amazing is that? We argue a bit but nothing big like it use to be. Everyone is getting along and it's good. My grades at school are great I have all A's and B's and I'm very proud of myself. Senior year is a blessing and a curse all in one. Yes, it's easy and fun this year, but it's also the last time I'll get to see my close friends everyday and that's something I'm truely going to miss. Elyssa told me I'm not allowed to talk about Graduation anymore until it actually happens because I keep making myself and my friends depressed. lol Talking about graduation though, In the fall I'll be going to Hocking college and for all those who don't know where that's at, it is in Nelsonville 15 minutes away from Ohio University. My major is Radiologic Technology....X-ray Technician. I'm nervous about going but I know a few people there so I won't be completely alone and I'm ready for this change in my life. It will be a great experience. Although, I'm not sure at all that r. technology is really what I want to do. To be quite honest, I have no idea what career I want for the rest of my life. So, for now I'm just picking something that I know I'll be good at, pays well, and hocking offers! haha That way I'll have something to do to earn a living while I'm trying to figure out exactly what I do want to do. Moving on, this year has also been a year of finding who my friends are and lately, I've realized...I don't have many. Yes, there are those that I talk to and hang out with sometimes, but I'm talking REAL friends. I love all my friends. I would be 100% lost without Becca and Elyssa and Erika and Eric etc...I'm dreading leaving them next year. They all mean the world to me. But real, true, bail me out of jail friends...only two people take the cake on that one. First of all there is Miss Sara Crawford. I don't even know where to start with her. I've known her since my Freshman year and we've been best friends ever since. We use to spend every single day of the weekend together for months until finally our moms told us it was too much and allowed us only one day. Bummer... We got separated there for awhile when she transfered to Jackson but we recently found each others company to be much needed and joyful again. I know that no matter what road I take in life Sara will be there for me. Maybe not by my side but only a phone call away. She's also one of the funniest fucking people I know! There is so much to say about her and I just can't think right now. She's my better half and I'd kill for her. I'm not sure if you've ever heard this expression but the saying goes....She's my shovel friend. The explaination is this....Sara is the only friend I have that I know I could drive over to her house at 3am, knock on her door, she'd open the door and I'd hand her a shovel and say let's go. She's put shoes on and leave with me....no questions asked. I don't know of anyone else that would willingly leave at 3am and not ask questions as to why they need a shovel haha. The second person that I know I can count on is Mark Centric, a part time lover and a full time friend. Even more so then Sara, I can and do tell Mark anything and everything. He is the only person in my life, past and present, including family, that knows everything about me. I'm sure there are some hidden secrets in there somewhere but he sure as hell knows a significant amount more than the rest. He is my rock. He holds me together. He doesn't even have to say anything, just listen and hold me. Mark is the only person other than family that has seen me cry and the only person other than Sara that I fully trust. That's love. I can't even say that I love Mark because I don't. It goes so much beyond that now and the word love just doesn't seem appropriate anymore. As with Sara, I'm having trouble thinking of all the millions of things I'd love to say about him. I'm gratefull everyday of my life that Mark came over Feb 16th 2006. That was the day my whole life changed. Yes, some for the bad, but mostly for the good. I've done a lot of stupid things with Mark and some things I probably should have said no to but you know something? It was all worth it. I cherish the memories I've had with him good and bad. Life just wouldn't be the same without him. I love the adventure and excitement, the joy and relaxation, and even the pain and sorrow. I take Mark for who he is. Nothing more, nothing less. He knows I support him in anything and everything he does and will do. I trust in him to do the same for me. No matter what happens to either of us in life he is mine and I am his. Maybe not in a romantic or even friendly way, because you never can be too sure what life is going to throw at you, but one way or another, I'm here. Mark is the second most amazing person I've ever met...the first of course being my Uncle. :) We accept each other for who we are and not who we have been and that really means something to me. Plus we put up with all of each tohers bullshit. I don't know anyone else that would do that because god knows we dish it out....A LOT!!! We spoke earlier today and the subject of love came up. He mentioned something about family loving him because they have to and I simply told him exactly. I don't have to love you, it's my choice and I've stuck by that choice throughout everything and always will. Dispite the many times I should have backed away and started over new, I haven't. I stick by the things I believe in and honestly, I believe in us. It's one of the only things I really do truely have faith in. Not much in my world is solid, but Mark and the emotion attacked to him. That's solid and very much real. As I said earlier, I don't really know what I want to do with my life. Maybe I'll be an x-ray technician or a photographer or even are lawyer. Who knows? But the one thing I do know that I want out of life is happiness. Wherever happiness leads me, I will follow. And right now, I'm following Mark and I think I will be for a long time to come. Now, what else is there to say? Emily and Nate are doing well as a married couple and I hear from them about once a week or so. Their latest news is that Emily wants to go back to college to further her degree in about a year when Nate is done with school. The catch is that they are looking to move to Pheonix, AZ or Hawaii. How amazing is that? AND Emily had asked me if I'd want to move to wherever they go with them and....get this.......be a built in nanny!!!!! There is no bun in the oven yet lol but at least they're thinking about it and boy I can't wait! As with college, I'm not sure moving out there with them is what I want to do for a long period of time, but I'd definately like to try it and just escape for awhile. It would be a good change for me. And who knows, maybe by then the change I wanted and was ready for might happen. :) Wishful thinking, I know. Well, I'm sure no one actually read through this all, seeing as how it's about 7 pages long! I'll end it here and comments are always welcome! Thanks for reading.

I love you sweetheart.

~Maggie xoxo

I love you and I'm ready.

Bordom Strikes Again!

ffcharmedfan319: u drive me crazy
soccerqt8205: you just cant sleep
soccerqt8205: are you excited?
soccerqt8205: in too deep?
ffcharmedfan319: ooo crazyy
soccerqt8205: but im sure it feels alright
ffcharmedfan319: baby thinking of you keeps me up all night
soccerqt8205: i love you joey!
ffcharmedfan319: i lovee youu more
soccerqt8205: true...because you'd walk to see me...I wouldn't

Life...

Can't get much better than this...

Except for the whole being sick thing...

As long as you're alive...here I am

Lyrics-How I Feel

We had fire in our eyes in the beginning
I never felt so alive in the beginning
We had time on our side in the beginning
We had nothing to hide in the beginning

She relys on fairytales

Just a little change
Small to say the least
Both a little scared
Not a one prepared
Ever as before
Ever just as sure
Certain as the sun

I'm a little bit of everything
I'm a bitch I'm a lover I'm a sinner
I do not feel ashamed
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
So take me as I am

I didn't have to do it but I did it to say
That I didn't have to do it but I would anyway

And tell me that we belong together...

And I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be better when I'm older
And I'll be the greatest fan of your life...

If I gave you my hand would you take it
And make me the happiest woman in the world
If I told you my heart couldn't beat one more minute without you,
Would you accompany me to the edge of the sea
Let me know if you're really a dream
I love you so, so would you go with me

Everything everything will be just fine
Everything Everything will be alright
Live right now
and just be yourself
Doesn't matter if it's good enough
For someone else.

And it sure feels good
To finally feel the way I do
I wanna love somebody
Love somebody like you

When you put your arms around me
You let me know theres nothing in this world I can't do

I will protect you from all around you
I will be here don't you cry
My arms will hold you keep you safe and warm
Cause you'll be in my heart
From this day on now and forever more
No matter what they say
You'll be her ein my heart always

...

Caught up in the moment

so yeah basically...last night was fun.
I got a little "happy" hahaha
but I didnt' break anything this time or sleep with someone!!! haha
and I made a new friend who's just like me and I love it!! haha and it's a girl too!!! I need those. hehe she's pretty freaking awesome. I won't lie...
Hmm.....and then I chilled at Jason's for awhile(previously at Brent's place) and we just laid down(pretty much all I could do at this point)
then came home(got pulled over on the way) and I was like you know 15 minutes late...I stumbled up the stairs and passed out. haha and woke up 12 hours later. lmao
I had a really good time...
and now it's 2008 and I have no idea what to do with myself...*sigh*
Wish Me Luck!

Oh and my resolution:: to be happy...no matter what.

New Feelings

<3 Can't get you of my mind boy.
Last night was amazing.
You're perfect and I'm so happy.
I couldn't have asked for anything better.
6 more months and I can fulfill my promise.
Just...no more making my body go numb haha a little TOO intense :)
You're so worth it though.
Can't wait until tonight baby

Meeting The Mommy!

So last night me and Jass went out to dinner with his mom...I was super nervous and was quiet at first but it really wasn't that bad. I had a good time and I got an AWESOME hug and an invite to go see her in Ten.!!! lol So I think I made a good impression. Glad I got approval! hehe OH!!! And she got Jason a warming blanket...omg that thing is amazing lol when he opened it my first reaction was Dear god am I going to love this gift!! haha and I did!!!! It's so nice and cozzy! Jason didn't want to read the directions though!!! But if we didn't we would have never known that it can cause fires, overheat, or personal injuries...not sure what those are though. hehehe. All in all it was a good night!! I missed him so much when I was in Columbus(only for a day....pathetic, I know haha) What can I say? I'm attached!! Anyways...thats about it for now...


Tonight's the night...:)

soccerqt8205: now THAT my friend......is a challenge

lmao.....God I love you Clint. lol
You crack me the fuck up hahaha.
I'm telling you...there's no way in HELL.
*giggle*
Clint: and yes i am pretty good with my shit
aaaahahahaha. nice :D
Tomorrow should be interesting lol
Haven't seen this boy in so long...hmm....since the summer actually lmao
Gotta go get ready for my date with Jass!!! eeeeeck!! I'm so nervous to meet his mommy!!!
Lots of Love <3

Magg

DocJoker3: there's no crying in baseball

Every road that I've been down
The only truth that I have found
There's only one thing I can't live without
You

I was searching for something
I thought I would never find
Losing my mind In and out of bad love,
I thought I was born to lose
Then came you I thought I knew what the real thing was
But nothing shakes me like your love does
I've been hypnotized
Now I realize

Every time I get lost in a temperamental mood
You still stay cool
Just when I think that this life's about to drive me insane
You take the reins
Every time I feel I'm drifting off course
You're my compass, you're my one true north
In a mixed up world
You make sense to me

Every road that I've been down in my life
Every time I feel I'm taking off
Every road that I've been down in my life
Every road, leads me to you

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

Hmm plans for the Holidays.

Today I'm cleaning my room (woo hoo) because I'll be having family staying in there over the weekend...
Then I'm getting all pretty for Jason lol and then me and him and my parents are going to Church(oh boy) and then to my Uncles for the usual Christmas Eve Tully Family Gathering. haha I can just hear the comments now lol. Oh well, This should prove to be a very interesting night. :D
Then I get to wake up super early Christmas morning and open gifts and then by 9am drive to my sister's for Christmas with the Coons' haha. I get to see Matt!!! lol but no Grant....sadly.
Then...Wednesday morning me mom dad and nate are going out to breakfast and then getting rid of Nate and driving home...should be back around noon.
Then...I relax for a little while and get ready and prepare myself for meeting Jason's mommy! lol I'm SUPER nervous!!! We're going out to dinner with her and it's just the three of us.....*shudders* lol Then I have no idea what I'm doing...Probably going back to his place as usual...


OH! and Thanks to Jason and him wanting me to come over last night(I don't know why we couldn't just stay at my house....although we had been there all day...) Me and Erika got into an accident on the fucking way home!!! Her car is smashed on the one side and we're both a little shaken up....Poor Erika is a mess. I felt so horrible. She wouldn't stop hugging me last night...We're okay though and thats all that matters. Just BE SAFE when you're travels for the Holidays!!!

K have a Wonderful Christmas!!!

Cause it's bitter sweet; He knocks me off my feet...

there you are

standing s.t.r.o.n.g.

I'm a leaf

holding on

you b.e.l.i.e.v.e.

like a child

oh I l.o.v.e. how you see

right to the h.e.a.r.t. of me

you're a part of all

washing over me

all that I w.a.n.t.

is to be

where y.o.u .are.

This Week...

has been a.m.a.z.i.n.g.!.

I happier than I've been in a really long time.

I can't wait for the weekend!

I love this feeling...

I have a feeling this is gunna be my best Christmas yet!!

Walmart and Candy Land

That was pretty much what my "date" consisted of. haha
I got a call....hey lets hang out.
Do you want to go to Walmart with me?
hahaha I have to admit it was a lot of fun.
Then we come home, parents ask a million questions(again)
and then we play Candy Land by candle light....little did I know the power was out. lmao. I thought we were jsut trying to be romantical. lol
I won....as always. lol Should have picked a different game!
Then the SNL Christmas special came on so we watched that and the best of Chris Farely(omg Becca....Farely....lol thats hilarious...I wonder if she's still fat!?!?)
and he went home.
It was a good night. Much needed. :D

Today...
going over to Erika's with a few people and making Christmas cookies!! haha maybe this time it will be less messy and sexual(hopefully not!!)
and possibly drinking in the hot tub lol
ttyl
and thanks for the comments! it's so nice to have readers :)

A dream is a wish your heart makes

Well, well, well...
last night was quite interesting.
all together it was a fun time though.
had a wonderful time with the non-asshole Mark...he was so sweet and cute there for awhile. :D loved it. It was great!
Then I had asshole Mark but thats okay because I got to cuddle with Erika in Jason's bed and have some really good conversations with him.
My dream came true....it just didn't finish. hahaha
Drugs in the kitchen.
Going upstairs.
Mad at Mark.
laying on top of me.
LMAO!
good timessss.
And...
that was the BEST hug ever! For sure.
Today should be interesting...considering...:)
hehehe
I'm such a bitch(I knew I was one before you did Heflin...no hard feelings :D)
anyways, gotta go get ready for *him* and the day...
Lots of Love
Maggie

I talked to Tayce today!!!!!!

xl0v3machine6909: so whats new cute face =)

This is serious with a period not a coma.

So last night was pretty much amazing.
I can't wait until summer.
That's when everything changes.
Ehhh not much else to write about...
The "gang" is coing over today to make Christmas cookies, go sleding, and watch Christmas movies and cuddle.
woo hoo.
Have a great weekend!

Justin Timberlake is my hero.

soccerqt8205: I wonder if anyone is gunna get me dick in a box for Christmas?
Rodioqueen2212: lol ask mark im sure he would!
soccerqt8205: hahaha
soccerqt8205: no....he'll just give me dick
Rodioqueen2212: true
soccerqt8205: I want it in a box!

I'll make you scream...There's not a drop of your innocence when you shiver

every hour spent together lives within my heart...
and when he was happy so was I...
we had each other that was all...
just he and I together like it was ment to be...
and I knew that he loved me...
so the days went by...
I stayed the same...
but he began to drift away...
and I was left away...
still I waited for the day...
when he would say I will always love you...
I never thought he'd look my way..
then he smiled at me and held me just like he used to do...
like he loved me...

I love how random I am!

soccerqt8205: Dude, I'm hot...

DocJoker3: ur a total babe

soccerqt8205: thanks...I know.

DocJoker3: Cali girls are hot but fake...you're hot and not fake. thats so much better.

soccerqt8205: I have real tits!!!

soccerqt8205: yay for me!!!

Indiana...

I am NOT having a good time so far....

I'm sick.
I'm lonely.
I'm exhausted.
I hate my parents.
The rest of my family refuses to go near me because I'm sick dispite the fact that I was SO looking forward to seeing them all.
I have nothing to do.
The drive here was horrible.
It's raining.
I want to come home.


on a better note....



DocJoker3: i think it's safe to say it........
DocJoker3: I love u



DocJoker3: i love u baby
DocJoker3: more than u know

Wow...what a night...

DocJoker3: by the way
DocJoker3: i love u
soccerqt8205: what?
DocJoker3: you read correctly....... i love u
soccerqt8205: are you sure?
DocJoker3: yeah i am, i mean i can't say i like u, cuz it fails to be up to par
DocJoker3: i love u
DocJoker3: u drive me crazy
DocJoker3: i want to be with u
soccerqt8205: You come home the 22nd on leave...until then hun.


^^one amazing guy. I'm really glad I met you. You've honestly changed the way I look at things in life and you're my living example of there's always hope and something to gain from it. Thank you for coming into my life. You mean more to me and have done so much for me without even knowing it.


Have A Wonderful Thanksgiving Everyone!!!!

In a "gamers" view

Nathan: *kisses me after a long night of me playing hard to get* "Well that was an acomplishment!!!"

Me: "What!? I'm an acomplichment?"

Nathan: "No, kissing you was....it was like 15 points."

Me: "wait...I'm only worth 15 points?"

Nathan: "No, the kiss was...see you're worth 1000 so...I have 985 points to go!!!

Me: "oh yay!"

lol fun night! Except I didn't see too much of Family Guy and someone likes to laugh in the middle of a kiss!! hahaha awkward!! anyways I'm off to see Tara and Justina!!!!! YAYYYYYYY

He made my shitty week better. and No Ben, this isn't a "new" guy for the record. haha

DocJoker3: but i like you, and i am gonna say it a bunch more times tonight
DocJoker3: till u believe it cuz it's true
DocJoker3: i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u i like u

soccerqt8205: oh.my.god. what if I just say I believe you?
DocJoker3: nope
DocJoker3: cuz i wouldn't believe u
soccerqt8205: well...grrrrr lol


That's my Dustin! lol Stupid military and broken groin haha doesn't come home til christmas because of it. You're shits broken lol thats hilarious!! aaaahahaha

Life lesson #1

Don't take Oxycotton from a stranger.

Anyways...
my weekend.

Friday I had the girls over for a night of drinking, playing cards, hiding in boxes(BECCA!) and eating a shit load of pizza. Oh and watching Elf at 3 am.

Mike Ross was suppose to ocme over but Maggie got into a fight with her mother and wasn't allowed to have guys over. But to prove t ome how much he likes me he wanted to sneak in my house. I told him no Elyssa wil lstab you and he said he'd get stabbed or even take a bullet for me if that's what it took to prove to me how much he wants to be with me. haha I still told him now but that is was really sweet of him and I liked him too. lol Then he called me at 2am telling me he was coming anyways. lol I again proceeeded to say no...and he begged to see me the next day...never happened. lol

Saturday we woke up...Erika puked...I laughed...got her water....we got ready and went to Amish Land(don't ask) and then to New Phili Mall. After that I met Becca and Elyssa at CCHS for the game. It was FRIGID!!! Since it was so cold I sat on Elyssa's lap...her brother saw and Elyssa threw me off...I then ended up in the lap of a stanger...haha which turned out to be a great thing...His name is Dustin...and his friend is Eddie. Well....he gave me a few things that night. lol Pop. His coat. Gum. SALTY fucking popcorn. A wonderful walk. A scary time in the car. lol ye sI got into the car with a stranger...but he wasn't really because I knew him for a whole hour before that. hahaha and he gave me a few other things but we won't dicuss those...lol hehehe. :D Glad I met you! Can't wait to see you again! and then I came home and called TJ because well....I needed to talk and felt I shouldn't be left alone. Then I passed out and didn't wake up til noon the next day. My mom thought I was dead. funny shit....

Sunday...I.did.nothing. lol it was pathetic...but in all honesty I was recovering...

This weekend is homecoming!!!! eeeeeeeck!!! Mike is coming home to take me which I am SO excited for!! I missed you so much and I've been all smiles this week just thinking about it. lol and I've already told Becca I'm not allowed to meet anyone new and go out with them haha I can't do that to the poor boy twice in a row!! lol I love him too much to do that!!! grrrrr what else??? I dont know....

alright...I'm going. Thanks for reading and don't forget to comment!


oh....and here's the ringback tone on Ross's cell. I LOVE this song and I sing it everytime I call him. haha thank god he hasn't heard me yet! lol


Some people care about what other people think
Worry ‘bout what they say
Let a little gossip
Comin’ from a loose lip
Ruin a perfect day
Saying “blah, blah, blah”
Just a-jacking their jaws
Gotta let it roll of my back
I don’t give a durn
What other people think
What do ya think about that?

Love You Tony...

Me: (Not sure what I said but I did the I've been naughty and I know it laugh)
Tony: Maggie.......you're a sex feind...
Me:*acts shocked and hurt* whaaaaaaat?
Tony: Don't even try and deny it...
Me: fine....but that still hurt...
Tony: are you still talking about the sex?
Me: WHAT!? NO!!!!
Tony: haha told you...

Last night was so much fun!! Those pictures are insane!! I'm glad I didn't put them all on myspace lol some might start to wonder about us :D


Can't wait for Friday...Erika, Elyssa, Becca, Tony, his Bro(who's engaged...bummer lol), and Shawn. Should be interesting with both Shawn and Tony there....Hmm.....

Saturday I'm stuck driving my parents(and erika) to some Christmas store and then New Phili... going to the mall baby! lol as much as I hate being with my family I'm really looking forward to it...

HA! and.......I won. Just to let you know. hahaha.


It won't be long...

Staying up late tappin on your window...

I was so sure...so postive...I knew it was suppose to be.

Is it? Can anyone really be so sure that something they thought they knew is really what it is?

Can't Be Without You Baby

I have so much to say and I can't even begin to tell you whats on my mind and in my heart...

I Love You.
Know that.
Always.
Nothing can or will ever change that.

Be Safe.
Life is hard and I know you can handle it...
Just come home(to me) in one piece...
And come home soon.

For the first time in my life I'm at a loss for words...

I miss you already sweetheart.

I told you...breaking my heart is your goal in life lol I caught you!
I am glad I got to see you today though.

I love you...so much...
please know that...

Oh the irresponsible-ness

I had what was probably the best weekend ever!!
I met some pretty freaking sweet people and had a blast!
I can't even begin to describe it...
Saturday night was the best by far.
Grant got upset because I'm beautiful and he won't ever see me again(yes you will silly!!! I can't stay away from you for too long!)
Matt got upset because he has a new let's protect Maggie(his new sister...in his words) attitude. And I needed protection let me tell you lol Naked, Drunk Jeff in my bed...lol scary...
Jeff walking into the room and going OMG MAGGIE'S HERE!!!! jumping in bed with me(as I was almost asleep....thanks kid) and cuddled with me....which was actaully him strangling me...he wasn't aware obviously lol Matt and Grant getting into a fight over drinking... Jeff taking his clothes off and 10 minutes late accused me of taking advantage of him because I apparently undressed him...yeah right! Matt yelling at Jeff Grant being upset about his friend. Nick coming in and yelling at Jeff(the poor kid got picked on all night) but the best thing ever was waking up to Jeff rubbing my side saying wake up my little sleeping beauty and giving me a morning kiss/good bye kiss. It made my weekend just that much better. :D I'm realy gunna miss him and all my guys and girls in the bridal party...especially Bob.....lol I wanted to see how fast he could drink a jack and pepsi.....4 of them....and he puked so he got me back by giving me jello shot after jello shot. hahaha I wish Emily got married more often!!!! that was a much needed break from reality.

On a serious note...

I am so happy Emily and Nate found each other. He treats her like a queen. Just as she deserves. I love my sister and new brothers to death!! I couldn't ask for anything more for her. I can't wait for more memorable weekends and long night chats. P.S. I balled my eyes out because I was happy. lol Just don't keep her away from me for too long Nate. I saw her first!!!!


No mister can come between me and my sister!!!!

I love you TJ!!

Thanks a billion for putting up with me!!!
lol
it's grrrrrrrreat to know someone is there for me no matter what...
even thought I am #8 lol
You'll always be #3 in my heart though...
hahaha

OHHHHHH
I can NOT wait for my birthday.
Jason's taking me to a strip club and then me you(TJ) Jason Billy Mike Linsey and.....I don't remember the other person lol are going to Canada!! woot woot. lol

Billy: woo hoo Canada!!
Me:I want to go
Jason: NO!!! this is a guys trip
TJ: yeahhhh
Me: but but...okay I'll do anything if you just let me go with you...
Jason: YES!! Okay you have to mess around with another girl while we videotape it and then put it on the internet
Me:*thinking he had this planned out* Okay...but just nothing gets put online...
TJ: too bad online or no deal...
Me: ughhhhh
Jason: you'll be 18 so YES online it is!! lol
Me: finnnnnnne.
Jason: I have a bi friend who lives in Wisconson.
Me: geeeeeeeze.


haha looks like I'm going to Canada!!!! lol


Can't wait for Matt to get here today and Grant tomorrow.
I had an a.m.a.z.i.n.g. time last weekend with those two..


Oh and by-the-way Grant.....dump the gf lol you said you and her were just like me and mark.....well....lol trust me....better off without them. lol and I love you and your family so it all works out. lol
I can not believe it said that outloud though...

Grant: and this is my gf*shoves picture*
Me: oh...I forgot you had a gf...wel lthat changes things *puts hand over mouth and gets BIG eyes*
Grant: yeah you said that outloud...
Me:*nods head*
Grant: it's okay though...I hate her
Me: YES!!!!
Both: *climb into bed lol that was ruined when the cop came.....*god damnit


haha great night.....I have a feeling this Saturday will be even better!!!

Love you two!

alright....now I've got to clean my room because I have to share it with Matt and Jeff *groan* lol

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!

This has really been one hectic week.

It's the week of the Wedding and the preparations have been unbelievable!!

Cleaning, cooking, last minute buying, packing things up to be set up on Friday, family arriving, STRESS.

Emily(bride), Nate(Groom), Jeff(Best Man), Matt(Nate's little brotherand groomsman), My Aunt and Uncle, Andrea(Bridesmaid) and Julian(her son and ringbearer), and my grandparents are all coming tomorrow(Thrusday). It's nuts!! My house will be packed!!! I can't wait though!!
Everyone else flies and drives in on Friday.

Plans...

Friday... I'm waking up and doing a few things around the house that STILL need to get done, going to the hall and helping setting up all the decorations, taking my sister to get her nails done, going to the CCHS rally, have a 5 minute relax time, get everything packed up, going to the rehersal, going to the rehersal dinner(in costume!!!!!......that I need to get still....ughhh), then Matt and I are having our bonding time haha going to the movies with my friends.

Saturday... I have no clue what the plans are..... getting hair and makeup done...early...then pictures all day and then the Wedding is at 6, reception at 7, PARTYYYYYYYYY all night!!! After that Me Jason Matt and Grant are going back to the hotel and staying up all night celebrating lol We've already decided that.

Sunday...going out to breakfast with a few people, having some friends over, going trick or treating, going to a haunted house. then RELAXING!!!!!

I am SO stoked. I'm just disappointed it gunna be all over soon. I've spent an entire year preparing for this!!! lol It's SO worth it though. Emily found the perfect man. I couldn't ask for anything better for her. He's amazing and I love his family!!

I'll update later (after the Wedding) with pictures and stories to tell.

Hope I don't ruin my makeup with too many tears!!

Good Luck Emily and Nate!!!

A friend sent this to me...and now I'm sharing it with you...maybe the right person will read it...and it will change them like it did me...

"if you're willing to chase me, i promise i'll run slow."

I must stick with you my baby...

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody's breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why i say:hey
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stickwituForever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stickwitu
You know how to 'preciate me
I must stickwituMy baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stickwituI don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our private lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me
And I say
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stickwituForever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stickwitu
You know how to 'preciate me
I must stickwitu
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stickwitu
And now...Ain't nothing else I can need
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly I'm with you
i'm with you
you're with me
you're with me higher
So don't you worry about People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't you worry about People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down

I don't miss you...

...I miss the person I thought you were.

Today was a great day!!

'Cause I got him where I want him now

And if you could then you know you would

'Cause God it just feels so...

It just feels so good

Erika brought me Swedish Fish today and let me tell you...after you eat the ENTIRE bag you get a little happy!! haha. Nothing went wrong today and I'm loving it! I'm like a little kid today. hehehe. I think I laugh everytime I open my mouth! Which, if you know me, is a lot!! lol

Ahhhh.

Hopeless Romantics here we go again...

The Fog Machine

Hmm......
Me and Jason found the Fog Machine last night! lol
We had Grilled Cheese, fog, tv, and cuddling. lol
And surpisingly my mother didn't mind that this all happened in my room. lol she actaulyl never even came in to check up on us....okay she did once ubt she had a Nixon Mask on and was trying to get me to come help her with something lol. (please don't ask what it was) haha
Thankfully, we didn't use al lthe fog juice(funny name lol) so today Jason and Erika and Justin are coming over (I stil lhave to call erika...oops) and we're using the rest of it!!! lol woo hoo!!!!


So I've got this blackmail thing down pat! lol I was like Ben....you didn't come over today so......haha andhe's like damn girl thats not fair! You can't make me feel bad about it. Ohhhhh yeahhhh. which reminds me....I have to buy him a ring lol(since I stole his.....) hehehe. And I've decided that I'm SO going with hi mto the Shore(aka Jersey) to go see his family over thanksgiving........and no not jsut because he knows Bam Margera and Johnny Knoxville. lol (holy shit I knew there was a reason I liked this boy!!!!) lol


alright I'm done.


Hope you feel better Corin!! *muah*

Carnival of Horrors.

was a.m.a.z.i.n.g.!


Felt bad for ben though...lol I was holding on a little tihgt there at the end...hahaha. Although I do have to admit I'm glad it was cold cause I got to shuggle with him (which I learned is his favorite thing to do lol THANK GOD!) After the rediculous terror we drove to Taco bell and sat around for a bit then it was back t omy house where summerhil land Christine promptly left(thanks to Walt's dad lol) and me and Ben got to snuggle some more on the couch while watching Jackass...how romantic. hahaha. But I learned I'm not a bad kisser haha (I wanted to kill you when you said that Ben!!! lol I get complimented and cut down all in one breathe. hahaha) AND you are NEVER getting your ring back...it's mine hehehe. By-the-way I miss you too! lol that was so cute when I woke up and saw that!! You're the best! I'm so depressed I won't see you for a few weeks though.....damn wedding. lol

Ehhhh I'm done ranting about my latest attachment....
update later....

Love You!

The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you...

^ Jeremy sent that to me...he knows his shit...


Anyways!
Plans for the day...
Going to get my NEW contacts!!! I 'll be able to see again!!! lol
Going to the mall with Erika. woo hoo She's ungrounded so we celebrate by picking up guys haha.
Coming home getting ready-ish
Summerhill's coming over.
Ben's coming over.
Leaving and going to get food.
Driving to the boondocks lol (way far away)
Having a fucking blast at the Carnival of Horrors! Thanks for agreeing to hold me Ben haha I owe you....sorry if I cry...I'm terrified of Clowns haha
Driving home and kickin it at my house for the rest of the night.
Then sadly Ben has to drive back to Cleveland...
*sad puppy face*
Tonight should be...interesting to say the least...

Oh, and I love you girl and I'm sooooooo freaking happy I get to see you today!! You're coming with me on my "date" tomorrow night!! lol My mom isn't too happy about me going to Corin's house...not because we'll be alone or because we're gunna have beer pizza and scary movies...but because he's 21 lol. She found out......grrrrr. It's been a few months too long since I've been with an older guy haha. Ohhhh I miss Eric Clint and sure I'll even include Doug....happy Erika? lol I don't completely hate him...He's just a douche and needs to stop using my friends AND ME! lol God dam...hey Erika....we're al lgoing to Maggies you should come...tell her she cna invite anyone she wants too. My response...gee thanks Doug for giving me permission to invite people over to my own house after you already invited yourself and all your friends...haha

I got off track.....

Anyways!
I've got to get ready.

Toodles.

Ben's such a lady's man!! lol Can't wait for Cleveland!!

all i know is ive watched u get cuter and cuter lol
seriously thats from the heart
like if u were to rape me i wouldnt care
no one fits what i want or like cept u now lol
perfect build.. stomachs just perfect. great face. beautiful eyes........I mean it
i want you...
You're too cute!

My love for him is like the wind...

he can't see it...
...but he can feel it.

Words of Brent

You have no problem getting guys.
You could have anyone you wanted.
All you have to do is like someone and he's yours.
Like, you cna just go out and find a random guy and have him fall in love with you.
No problems...
Again, you can have anyone you want...





woot woot!!!! lol I can get anyone I want. Does that include girls too? lol because that Caroline...haha Friday night was great....


OH! and the best part of Friday night was seeing Ben!!! oh my god! I can't believe he drove from Cleveland to see me!! hehehe by-the-way I do NOT hate you! and I'm definately coming up this weekend! I can't wait!!! And you're gunna fix my car up and make it all pretty and FAST!!


anyways!! thats about it. thanks for reading!

Can we forget about the things I said when I was drunk...

David: So, since I'm coming to your house, can I have your address so I can mapquest it?
Me: Woah...I just started talking to you...how do I know you aren't a crazy person? I don't think I should give you my address...
David: Well, for one...how the HELL am I going to be able to go to your house if you won't tell me where? and two...I'm really a senior at Hoover...I swear to you.
Me: Okay...*gives address* but I swear to god! If you come and I get raped, murdered, or stolen!!!
David: I promise. I'll ask you if I cna before I do any of that.
Me: Okay...thank you. NO! wait!!! lol

Let the good times roll......

Him: I won't last 20 seconds when you get here
Me: So I don't even get to sit and enjoy your company for a bit?
Him: well ya... but when it starts...I don't even know :D
Me: when what starts? *giggle*
Him: Wehn the kissing starts...
Me: Oooooooooh. So again I can't just get a simple kiss and continue to chill for awhile? Once we kiss all hell breaks loose?
Him: You just have to make everything sound bad don't you?
Me: yup!

I feel much better now...thank you!!!!

Summ042: MAGGIE TULLY I LOVE YOU AND AM VERY SORRY GUYS ARE SUCH PENIS-FACED ASSHOLES TO YOU....................

The Greatest Team Ever...

Beaners........

TeeJay5771: Mexico really can't do much of anything right.

TeeJay5771: Like...what do they have at all?
TeeJay5771: Tequila and sombreros?

soccerqt8205: true
TeeJay5771: Oh and some cheap hookers if you don't mind getting syphillis and having your dick fall off in a week...

soccerqt8205: all true
TeeJay5771: This is the kind of thing I think about when I'm bored...

I love you Teeeeeeeeeej!!!!

Safety First.....

You know Maggie, thee's a hot tub...
Ohhhh that sealed the deal! I'm coming over!!
It's a naked hot tub though...
Okay...understandable...
Well, it's a real big hot tub but there's only one seat right now...so we might have to sit on each others laps...
oh really? and why's that?
uhh the seats are uhhhh under construction....
okay then we'll take turns
NO! I have to be in it at all times to make sure no one drowns...
Ooooookay. lol Laps it is...

Prepare to be enchanted....

This is Dave...

It's always going to be us.....

I had such a great time last night. I finally got to meet all the crazy ass people Mark's always talking about. I was beginning to think they weren't real!!! lol Long ass night and I'm still recovering!! I realized that Derek is WAY more awesome than I thought he was and he's got a lot of good ideas and I'm glad that (besides myself) Mark has someone like Derek to watch over him and keep him in line. lol He's such a great friend. I'm gunna miss not being able to see these guys everynight now. lol Makes me sad.....but I sure as hell know what I'm doing on the weekends now!!! haha. Ehhhh anyways I'm gunna go get some sleep....more than 2 hours would be nice. lol and he's right......it IS going to be hard but we WILL make it and it IS always going to be us.

You make me smile, please stay for awhile now....

"You're not just some girl. You never were and you never will be."

You don't know how much that ment just to hear you say that.

I'm not being a meanyface!!!!!!

LAST PERSON.
1. Had a beer with?Erika....haha hilarious
2. Saw a movie with?Emily and Nate
3. Went to the mall with?Mark
4. Talked on the phone with?Erika....she's talking to me right now...
5. Made you laugh?Paul.....I am not a meanyface!!!
6. You hugged? Jason :D

WOULD YOU RATHER...?
1. Pierce your nose or tongue?tongue
2. Be serious or be funny?funny
3. Drink whole or skim milk?skim.....ewwwwey whole
4. Die in a fire or get shot?get shot

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...
1. Sun or moon?moon
2. Winter or Fall?both...they're my fav. time
3. Left or right?right
4. Sunny or rainy?sunny but rainy is nice to.
5. Peach or Pear?Peaches
6. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?cut then twirl...
7. Do You Cook?sure do....when Mark lets me!!!
8. Current mood?giggles and tired and sore and lonely because Jason isn't here yet

IN THE LAST WEEK HAVE YOU...
1. Kissed someone?oh yes......
2. Sang?I was like 5 minutes ago to Erika.....hehehe
3. Been hugged?of course
4. Danced Crazy?oh yes, Erika got in on camera too......
5. Cried?Mark made me cry today but definately in a good way.

My Wish

But more than anything,

more than anything,

My wish, for you,

is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

Your dreams stay big,

and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you.

and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

The things you keep.....

What would I do without friends?

How's your left boob?
WHAT!?
Whaaaaaat? It's a serious question!
Ummm it's fine........thanks
You're welcome.



hahahahaha brilliant. And to think....he's going to be a cop.....woah.




Erika:heeeey i like this song (middle)
Me:but no...i like this one(headsprung)
Erika: okay
Me: yeah cause I'm trying to get my gangster on....the right mood you know. *dances all crunk like*


Me:woahhhhhhhhhhhhh look at your boobs!
Erika: yeah I know this bra makes my boobs look bigger than they really are.
Me:It's an illusion.......

Don't go for a walk at 130am.....

So me and Erika get to her Dad's house and I get cold so I put Mark's hoodie on right? well I was wearing itty bitty shorts so it looked like I wasn't wearing pants.

*her dad walks in*

Me:Hi Mr. Sherman! I just want to let you know I'm wearing shorts.
Her dad: oh okay.



hahahaha. Random...I'm off to retreat byeeeee

Looking forward to a little afternoon delight

So last night was pretty much amazing!
I went to the Central-Dover game last night with Mike and met TJ Billy Lisa and Walt there.
Oh course Mike left me to talk to his roomate in college but still lol
The funniest thing was our convo....

Me:*finally finds him* heyyyy ummmm can I have your keys?
Mike:*looks at his roomate....roomate smiles* why!?
Me: well because I have to put something in there
Mike: just tel lme and I'll give you my keys.
Me: noooo I odn't want to say outloud.
Mike: come no maggie don't do this. Just tel lme
Me: NO!
Mike: I know the milege on my car.
Me:yeah yeah I'm not going to take it anywhere. I need to put something in it. dont' I Lisa
Lisa: mmhmm.
Mike: fine *hands me the keys*
Me and Lisa: *walk to the car*
Me: *takes bra off* ahhhhh much better


Too bad I didn't get to see his reaction when he saw it in the car. lol That would have made my day but I was too busy trying to hide myself from that little kid that saw me trying to get dressed again. lol hahahahaha see TJ my boobs don't fit in this....WOAH little kid!! errr ummm cough *everyone else laughs* hahaha. oh man.....good times.


Hmm....what else? Tonight I'm going to Kent with Erika and we're going to kick it at Doug and Russells apartment....oh yeahhhhh going on retreat tomorrow with a hangover. that's just great.

K bye

It's not about being who everyone wants you to be, it's about being yourself and finding someone who loves every bit of it

Empty.

It's just not me.

I can't lie.

I'm hurt.

Not because you left.

Not because of how it happened.

Not because we're over.

But because you are so much better than this.

And you know it.

I'm hurt because you've pushed away everyone that matters.

Everyone who cared for you.

Everyone who would be by your side no matter what.

Everyone you loved.

That's why I'm hurt.

Because even you don't like who you're turning into.

You just can't see it yet.
We're all always here if you need help.

All you have to do is ask.

And that's going to be the hardest thing.

Asking.

Fear is a horrible thing.

Just know that no matter what happens you have people who will always love you.

Know that sometimes you can be wrong.

Figure it out.

Before it's too late.

We love you.

You know this.

Elyssa's toe is swollen...hehehehe

Me: Heyyy Elyssa, I think you should come to the Massillon game with me so I can find you a mannn.
Elyssa: Okay how about you go to the game and do your "I'm a girl" thing and get a whole bunch of guys.
Me: Woahhhh heyyy what does that mean!
Elyssa: You can get guys and I can't so I need you to pick up a guy for me.
Me: Errrrr okay I'm taking that as a compliment.
Elyssa: good because I'm oblivious to guys.
Me: yeahhh like the time at the store when I went HEY this guy is staring at you and you go huh? what guy? I'm trying to buy candy!!
Elyssa: I was!!



So, personal finance is gay and I'm not doing the work...^^as you can tell.


Hmm.....not much else going on....I'll update later.


Congrats Steve and Krista!!

Searching

No matter where I am

I think of you

You're always on my mind

When I'm with you

My fears fade away

In a room full of people

You're the only one around

you make me feel alice

Hoping for a man like you

And here you are.

I Love you Mark.

I like you just the way you are.

"I love you" is an over-used phrase with Me and Mark.

That's okay though.

No matter how often I say it, it's never said enough.

I Love You So Much.

I know I get frustrated a lot and angry but that doesn't change a thing.

Nothing you could ever do would make me stop loving you.

I appreciate you so much.

I hope you know just how much.

You really are my world.

I just wanted to make sure everyone knew that.

I'm so glad you came into my life.

You're so good to me.

Couldn't ask for a better man to love.

Thank you for everything you do.

I Love You.

and you know, there's nothing like it in the world, then when we're out there underneath the sun and I'm a dirty girl.

This has been the best last week of summer!!!

Those memories will never fade.

I'm super bummed I'm leaving this weekend.

Now I'm going to miss all the Clint and Doug fun.

School starts tomorrow.

I have Study hall the last three periods of the day.

That should prove to be interesting tomorrow.

Definately NOT staying there after 4th.

Happy Birthday Mark.

Yep.

If you want me girl let me know

Me: *singing to N'sync...tearin up my heart*
Erika: I want you


Yes that's right...I've been downloading music from N'sync and singing to it all morning. What's so wrong about that??

I know that I cna't take no more
it aint no lie
I want to see you out that door
baby bye bye bye

hahahaha. the classic song. Oh Lance Bass and your gayness. So disappointing. We were going to get married....oh fooey.


and now we more on to The Backstreet boys.

You are....my fire
the one....desire
believe....when I say
I want it thata way.


And Britney Spears......man I miss the 90's

you drive me crazy
I just can't sleep
I'm so excited
I'm in to deep
Crazy but it feels alright
baby thinkin of you keeps me up all night


Okay I'm done now.....I'm going to go sing on my own.......Erika won't sing with me.....gayyyyy


Miss you baby. Can't wait til you come home!!!!

Me and Erika like to Animilate the long walk and shorten it.

Me: My name sounds really weird with his last name.
Erika: *weird look given to me*
Me: WOAH! did I just say that outload? *trying to act like I didn't*
Both: Laugh
Me: that is sooooo going on my blogger.

Last Night Ended Too Soon.

Erika: hey.....do you get really attached and fall in love with all the people you have sex with?
Me: Alllllllll the people I have sex with? Thanks. And no.
Erika: Oh okay. I was just wondering.
Me: WHY?!?!?! Are you going to have sex with Doug? lol
Erika: nooooooo
Me: Liar.



Me:*swimming in pool* Hey Erika.....as your protective older sister, I'm giving you permission to have sex with Doug.
Erika: Whaaaaaat? lol
Me: I'm just saying.
Erika: oooooooookay.
Me: Damn it's cold in here.



*at Don Pablos*
Me: Heyyyyy I like that guys shorts.
Erika: MAGGIE!!!! Did you just take a picture of that guys shorts??
Me: Nooooooooo.
Both: *giggle*



*laying on the living room floor VERY dizzy*
Me: Sex and the City just isn't the same anymore........



*walks downstairs and turns light on*
Me: where is my phone? oh hey......sorry......
Erika: turn the light out!!!!
Me:can we cuddle?
*lays in bed and get REAL close*
Me: *whispers something that I can't say on here in Erika's ear*
Erika: Okkkkkkay good for you. go Do it again. Now turn the light off!!!
Me: I don't think I'm wanted. *walks upstairs*



Paul: yeahhhh you like that.
Me : ooooooh baby yes I do.
Erika: Ummm he was talking to the video game
Me: Oh, well I still liked it.
Erika: I know you did.



*this morning when I woke up*
Me: ughhhh I have a huge bruise on my leg.
Erika: Prolly from when you fell.
Me: which time?
Both: *laugh hysterically*




To Be Continued.......

Call me should you need assistance

Mark getting attacked by Daisy.

He secretly loved it.

I won't lie; I was jealous.

Nick and Jack

They love trains.

Tend to stare.

Reading is my passion.

I want to die with a half empty bottle of volka on my nightstand, a novel by my favorite author turned to the last page, and a smile on my face.

~"Odd Thomas"-Dean Koontz.

I agree.

Simon says.

Jack wanted to play Simon Says so his uncle and his brother go sit down with him and what's th first thing he says but.......Simon Says use you're imagination.

How cute it that?

Lord, I love these little rugrats.

more funny things.

it was storming out and Jack goes "wow!!! that's the biggest boom I never saw!!"

hahaha.

what else?

Sitting at the dinner table eating lunch.....Nicholas spills corn on the floor and I go what's gotten into you little buddy? and Jack goes it's because he's malfunctioning.

lol Nick is a robot now I guess.

Man I can't wait to come home though.

As cute as they are, I'm exhausted.

I might be rethinking the having a kid early.

Nuts.

Alright, I'll update later.

Thanks for reading.

♥Magg